Thursday, April 24, 2014

Stupid things = happy things

Coba deh inget inget hal paling tolol yg pernah lo lakuin dalam hidup lo. Apapun itu, setolol apapun, sesuram apapun, sememalukan apapun itu, kalo lo recall lagi pasti lo bakal ketawa. Ngetawain diri lo sendiri.

Kayak kemaren, misalnya. Seumur hidup gue kemana-mana sendirian naik angkutan umum, belum pernah gue setolol kemarin.

Singkat cerita, pulang kantor gue as usual balik naik kereta. Nnggu lah gue di Stasiun Tebet yg menuju Jakarta. Kereta dateng, gue naik dong. Turun lah gue di Manggarai utk transit ke arah Bekasi.

Saat gue turun, ada pengumuman kalo kereta arah Bekasi udah ada di peron 4. Gue yg lg nggak aware gue ada di jalur berapa, main naik aja kereta yg ada di seberang.

Pas kereta jalan, nggak sampe 5 menit kemudian, kereta mulai ngerem lagi. Gue mikir, kok tumben banget Manggarai-Jatinegara secepet ini. Gue langsung pengen nyelem ke kutub utara saat pengumuman pemberhentian stasiun terdengar.

"Stasiun Tebet"

Disitu gue ngerasa tolol setengah mati. Gue balik lagi ke Tebet kayak orang linglung.

Tapi disitu gue sadar, terkadang hal-hal tolol yang kita lakuin itu spicing up our life, loh. Hidup kita jadi ada rasanya. Jadi lebih berwarna, lebih bervariasi.

Saat itu gue langsung me-recall hal-hal tolol apa aja yg pernah gue lakuin. Dan gue senyum-senyum sendiri kalo inget-inget semua hal itu.

Buat gue, terkadang memang hal-hal tolol itu yang bikin gue ketawa. Ketawa, kenapa gue dulu bisa setolol itu ya dulu. Dan itu bisa jadi pelajaran sih buat gue supaya nggak ngelakuin hal itu lagi. Atau paling nggak nggak sebodoh itu...

XOXO

Monday, April 21, 2014

Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ)

1. How could you be so tall??
    - I got it from my Grandpas. Both grandpas from both side are giants. I also played basketball and swim alot when I was a little girl.

2. You're that tall and so thin, why don't you just be a model?
    - Dad not allowed me. He said that a model revealed too much skin.

3. So then why don't you just be a stewardress instead?
    - I've ad tried once. But my luck is not on me.

4. Why don't you try again, then?
     - Not possible. My eyes minus problem is getting worse now. :((





Well, okay I guess that's it for today. I'll updated when I remember what question people likes to ask me about.

XOXO

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Rumors going around... His plane is on delay...

I totally have no idea where this rumors pops up. It was just some morning, few weeks ago, when I prepared to go to office, at the dinner table when I having my breakfast, my aunt, since I live with my cousin for a month, said this,


"I heard some rumors, someone told me that you are going to get married. Is that true?"

And I was like,

"WHUUUTTTTT???? MARRIIIEEEEDDDD??? ARE YOU KIDDING ME, AUUUNNNTTTT???!!!"

No, I didn't said that out loud.

"what?! Married? Haha I don't even have a boyfriend. Married with who?"

I said that instead. Lol

"Don't lie with me. You know it's not a wise move." my aunt said jokingly.

"No, ma'am. I'm not lying. I have no boyfriend to start with. Who am I going to get married with?"


Yeah, that was few weks ago. And also few weeks ago I have this bestfriends supicious attack.

My friend was like suspecting me that I have a bf without even telling them. And they even do it again last night! They even said thay I'm change. Pft! What a friend!

Mom also always do this kind of things to me, jokingly asked if I have a boyfriend but not believe me when I said no.

I am always like that when I'm being teased. I'll go all shy and red even when the rumors not true. People somewhat expecting something more that the truth I have told them because of that reaction of mine.

Nobody believes me. I'm the kind to said 'No' when it's no and 'Yess' when it'a yes. And I'll tell when I feel like I have to tell.

All I can say is, my boyfriend has not arrived yet. His plane is still on delay and the road from the airport to reach where I stand now is in a heavy traffic.

It's not easy for us to meet, but we will.

Just wait and pray for your friend's best, pal.

XOXO

Friday, April 18, 2014

Me is the reason why.

Hello, I'm back after sometimes.

I'm just gonna share my thoughts again about something. It's not bothering me, but I guess yes for some people.

Someday, in a good day, my friends and I were talking randomly at campuss. And we were playing revealing secrets. And that moment revealed that I haven't been in a relationship ever.

And guess what? Nobody believed me! Looollll...

And the same things goes on everytime I said that I haven't been in a relationship with someone. They said that I didn't look like one.

Lol and what do I looked like? Some two timing bitch maybe. Lol. Kidding.

I still wonder why nobody believes me, tho.

Well, then, couple weeks ago I went out with a friend and his friend. And we were like teasing each other and the topics came.

And another case, they don't believe me! I teased by those two bastards (kidding guys, I love you guys to the moon and backs. Lol) nonstop.

My friend was like going all "I'm going to reveal you secret when we meet the others"

And I was like, I don't mind. Because it wasn't a shame thing.

But for the two boys, maybe that was. Maybe because they were boys.

At first I was shyly revealed that, but a friend of mine said that it was a good thing. Good thing that I haven't been touched by any bastards in any bad way. Good things that I never had a broken heart because of post breakups.

For the first one, I agreed. But the later, I opposed. Just because I haven't had a boyfriend my entire life, doesn't mean that I haven't fallen in love my whole life too, right?

It's a long story I'll tell next time. But from the moments I encountered, I realized something, sometimes we cant alwayd blame other when something isn't work our way. We have to blame ourself first. Track back our way and see if there is something we lack or we missed.

In my case, when some day I have a talk with Stella, she said this thing that hit me to th core.

"why?"
"I don't know. It just doesn't work till that stage. I just don't feel something I feel like suppose to feel."
"so it's you, then. You are the reason."

And that day I was like falling from a plane and hit the ground hard. Yes, it's me. The reason why it does never work was me. Maybe I'm too cold to melt. Too stiff to be softened. Too tiring to reach.

I admit, I'm cold and stiff around boys I feel not comfortable as a friend. I'm such a bitch when I don't like someone. That's why. I'm straight. Perfectly, if they questioned me. But it's just I love the process and hate it when someone befriend me just because they have something ups towards me.

I actually need someone who could patiently stand my bitch indifferent side, not someone who just wanna play on easy games and surrender when they feel like it's too hard to finish. Call me conservative or whatever, but I'm not an easy game to play with.

XOXO